on timing

a 3 month recap and why now for egg freezing

Ever since writing about contemplating egg freezing back in February and August, I’ve been hesitant to commit to a date. There’s been travel or other plans, and I’ve been waiting for the exact *right* moment. And then of course realized there is no perfect time. So with that in mind, I’m finally organized enough to start everything in a few weeks, at the end of February (if all goes to plan).

After learning that life can impact egg quality for 2-4 months before egg maturation, I wanted to take inventory of the last 3 months. I started jotting down little happies in my notepad, and when reading them back, I can say confidently it’s been a delightful 3 months. These eggs have experienced the full range and well of emotion, and I’d like to quite literally freeze time to capture this feeling.

I’d be lying my tail off if I said I wasn’t a little nervous. All procedures have risk of harm and side effects.

Though if there’s anything that the first two years of the new presidency has taught me (wait, sorry two weeks?!???), it’s that I am vehemently not ready to bring a child into this world.

I’m writing this post as part of a gratitude practice, and after doing it, I’d highly encourage it to others. To write down and cement into memory all the little minutia that sometimes feels mundane though ends up being magic. It almost felt like poetry in motion.

This post is seeing if I lived out my grounding habits. Recalling and remembering the little this’s and that’s, the here’s and there’s, the makings of a month. I hit the mark in some places, and not in others.

Here goes.